"I lean back on the pillows and look at the corners of the room. When I was a kid, I always wanted to live on the ceiling - it looked so clean and uncluttered, like the top of a cake."
— Jenny Downham (Before I Die)
I used to want that too. I used to think I would be free. Feel free. I could just look above me and see the sky and how it's immensity was beautiful.
It made me believe I could touch the blue sky by the day and stroke the stars by the night. It was like a dream.
It felt safer on my thoughts. It feels safer now that I'm living what was once my dream. It somehow was like escaping from reality.
That's what Tessa needed.
Sometimes all you need is a deep-crazy google search to find the right path. After asking for a great book to read I found this one and downloaded it onto my cellphone. It was kind of depressing at first. Terminal illness and all. But I kept reading, anyway. When I stopped I realized I'd just reached the end of it.
This book just brought so much to me. Gave me a whole perspective about life. Be thankful for the little things because that's all you'll carry with you when you're dead. And all that you did for the others is what's going to remain alive. It's a good idea to have a "To-Do List" too. I found it would make me never stop living and, maybe like she (Tessa) did, add some more goals when I made it all ten.
Maybe starting by here ( http://thingstodo.oncelife.com.au/ ) is a good idea. :D